Hello dearest Veritas 300. Its just now January 24, one of the most important days of my life to date. There have been so many people who have been praying for healing due to the epic stroke which almost killed me on January 8 at 9:30 am in Franklin, Tennessee. What happened to me changed my life because it did more damage than I had ever dreamed possible when I saw my brain scans, the MRI and more.
It would be impossible for any healing to happen, unless you believe. There have been many times in my life when "another little miracle" would happen which would be unexplainable. A great man wrote a book called GODS LITTLE INTERRUPTIONS and it was focused on how Christ kept getting interrupted which is why so miracles took place. I will never forget the power of this book.
Everything in my life seemed to be heading one way, and then I could no longer feel my arms, my legs caved under me and I saw myself falling in slow motion without the ability to catch myself until I slammed into the pavement. This began the most amazing journey of faith which has ever captured me. Then, it was like a fast forward listening to the doctor tell me I had six strokes on the left side, six strokes on the right side and I was in a critical situation.
This week, I attended the 40 year anniversary of CCM United put on by Stan Moser and it was nothing less than very spectacular. In the concert, which was 3.5 hours long, music began to minister to me like I had never known before. The anointing was so present, everyone in the room could feel the power of God working.
Another night of music with the greatest music artists in Christian Contemporary History. Many of them, we had been singing for years and having the opportunity to be in great churches like Council Road Baptist, First Baptist Columbia, Brentwood Baptist, LifeChurch.TV, NewChurch and more I had been exposed over and over again.
A couple days even earlier, Carman had called me to share about his bout with cancer and he said something which got me to thinking. "Kevin, I should have been dead, but instead, God showed off and let me give you some advice. Get a goal, something you can point toward, dream about and don't settle". I knew everything he was saying was right and there was no accident in his words and the timing of God.
What would be my goal?
There was only one thing I have been thinking about, praying about and consumed by after my stroke which seemed way too simple. I wanted to believe God was going to heal me.
So here was my dilemma. Would it be right for me to ask the Lord for this goal? When so many people are hurting, so much pain has happened, but for whatever reason the Lord spared me. He chose to give me life and if He wanted me gone, I would have been. Maybe my entire future was to remain in my wheelchair, to agree that my new future was with hospital doctors, nurses, technicians and more?
Please forgive me if I am not sure of the answers to all of these hard questions, but I know this, VERITAS needs to live on as a ministry. We need to encourage media missionaries to be called. There are many stories which are non commercial Hollywood will pass by, but truly need to be told. People have a community in our group to pray together in VERITAS 300 and we have a mission that has nothing to do with a person, but with a vision to encourage family, faith and freedom being instilled into the visual language of film.
After being moved by the music this week, its been sixteen days since the enemy tried to kill me. The outcome as you know is only 50% of "some kind of recovery". I accept this, if it is God's will. For all this time, I have gone through getting the permanent disability sticker, we now have a black wheelchair and I am pushed everywhere.
Then, at the music concert, Michael Omartian said, "This is not you Kevin, you are not going to stay in this chair, you have more to do.".
After the concert, I went home and prayed. So many encouraging words this night took place. From Tommy Coomes who felt compelled to pray with me, then Dallas Holm interceding and embracing me while praying for divine healing and then Larnelle Harris not accepting my new lot and David Meece encouraged me as well. Music professionals circled my family, prayed for us and asking God to heal me. These were not accidents, so I asked the Lord if I was to do anything, I would hear from Michael again.
He emailed me the next day and said, "Is there anything I can do for you, I love you." I asked him if he and Stormie could come to my home and pray for me, so he emailed back let's do this on Saturday and 2 pm is the time. These are not accidents but real faith in action by a couple like Michael and Stormie who walk with God. They are coming over at 2 pm and I now believe, more than ever a miracle is on the horizon
Tomorrow at 2 pm, kind people of faith are now coming to my home and they are going to pray a miracle of healing for me. I believe God is going to miraculously help me walk. I accidentally just fell on the floor about an hour ago in my bedroom trying to practice walking. Then, I even got stomach sick earlier tonight from watching a movie. However, I believe God wants me to be healed tomorrow and it begins at two.
I grew up a Baptist. Miracles are not really high on our churches agenda, but one thing I learned as a young man of the power of miracles in those who believe in the power of the name of Jesus. Tomorrow, they will place their hands on my damaged brain and I am choosing to believe a miracle will happen. I will walk without help from a cane, without a chair and with no guidance. This will be a sign of His love to all, of His power and nothing more.
The longer I live, the more I realize my faith has been small. God's plan of love is huge and so very big it is life changing in so many ways.
Thank you for believing with me, for praying and knowing this miracle is going to happen.
What I want more than anything is whatever HE wants is what I want. God saved me and some times miracles can take years and sometimes, they can take moments. This is the real power of God in each of our lives. My pastor in Franklin, Clint Thomas has prayed healing over me, family members have prayed healing and many who believe ARE praying healing. All of these VITAL prayers are going to amalgamate into one powerful force in hours.
My next email blog will speak only of the miracle of His love and a supernatural healing or I will share with you how "off" I was and be totally transparent.
I can't even begin to say how crazy this might sound, but how perfectly in line with true faith I believe this is. We will ALL know from this point on, God is in control of every situation. Life can be extended, even when things look difficult. I have seen people pray miracles before.
Absolutely, there are times when God has a different plan than ours.
I believe the real truth is "Do we really believe?"
Sing more, listen to Christian music and fill your heart with God's love each and every day. Pray believing in real miracles and just see what God will do. Don't be afraid to be bold and share your dreams with others because sometimes, God might even have the same dream you have.
Kevin McAfee is a filmmaker who writes for the purpose of inspiring others to make a difference in the world through faith in God and using the visual language of film. His blog shares the hopes of impacting culture, because his heart is in media missions and the church.